Monday, January 11, 2010

Here We Go Again

I am like most people this time of year.  I am on a diet.  I am still holding pregnancy weight and I was just not in a good place with my relationship with food. 

I have dieted before so I know how to do it.  When we lived in NY we didn't have many friends so I got fat because I was depressed.  Then I took a look in the mirror and didn't like what I saw so I went on a diet.  Again the not many friends thing worked to my advantage.  I had time to do things like go to Weight Watchers meetings and run 5 miles a day.  So I went from fat to really really skinny.  Like someone should have told me skinny. 

And then we moved back here and got plugged into a great church.  I met alot of wonderful people and have made some life long friends.  And with happiness comes food and no time to exercise.  So I started to let weight slowly come back on. 

Then I got pregnant and used it as the excuse to eat whatever I wanted.  Taco Bell and I were friends.  Then I had this sweet baby and I didn't care anymore.  Then I cared but I still liked Taco Bell so I really didn't care. 

That brings me to now.  I have set a reachable goal.  I want to lose X pounds in 8 weeks.  (Ok, I'm being honest but some things are better left to ourselves).  You see, we go on a cruise in 8 weeks.  And it's not just a cruise that Ryan and I are going on by ourselves because if it were I would be tempted to show up fat in a bathing suit.  It's a cruise with 5 couples from his work.  You see my husband rocks and qualified for the trip. 

So there is the current motivation but it goes beyond that.  I don't want to live this life of up and down all the time.  As I am losing weight I want to really focus on my emotional reasons of why I eat.  If only I could call in Jillian Michaels to be my personal trainer/emotional guide through weight loss.  And I put this all down in words so that I could be more like my friend Joy who says that it there is power in saying something outloud.

So there I said it.  Any words of encouragement?

5 comments:

  1. Great Post! I know you can do it too! Do you want me to be your accountability coach? I can totally do it.

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  2. You can do this girl! I believe in you! Want a good plan to follow, that doesn't have you counting anything? Read Joy Bauer's LIFE Diet book. Super easy plan. I dropped 9 pounds in about 2 and a half weeks. Then Christmas got me, but I managed to keep off 5 of them over the holidays! Take your emotions to the Lord. Have a game plan on a card that you can see reminding yourself why you are doing this, and that the Lord wants to help you and He can. Brownies can't. Keep us posted!

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  3. Yay for saying things aloud! Given our constant off-task conversation during tonight's meeting, I think it's important we get together for running, coffee, something....soon. I can say out loud my recent struggles with my X number of pounds and the green-eyed monster and, hopefully, encourage you!

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  4. Jillian will kick your butt. I'm pretty sure that's the only thing I consistently did last spring. 20 minutes and butt kicked.

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  5. "Then I cared but I still liked Taco Bell so I really didn't care." I literally laughed out loud, because it reminds me of me and McDonald's. Good for you for getting in shape hun!

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